There are other colors…I’m sure of it!

Wouldn’t be nice if everyone could get that everything is not black or white?  I mean, sure…I’m a pretty black and white person when it comes to murder, child abuse, animal abuse, planet abuse…. the horrid stuff like that.   But hey, there’s a lot of other colors out there ranging from grey to white.  It’s not the worst thing in the world to try and understand someone else’s point of view once in a while.  You don’t have to adopt it.  Just stand in their shoes, momentarily,  and see of you can get where they’re coming from.

It would be so boring if everyone believed the same thing, wore the same thing, looked the same way!  Yuck!  Diversity of opinion is not such a bad thing.  And if you can’t get on board with someone else’s opinion,lifestyle, belief…… I’m saying…..at least treat the other person with some respect.  Realize that you don’t have all the answers, that we need diversity in this country in order to overcome our obstacles. Give peace a chance….be a little more moderate in your arguments today and try not to be so inflammatory.  Send some peaceful energy out into the universe.  We all need it.

It’s more obvious for some than for others.

What do you do when you just don’t know the answer?  I have spent a lot of my life not knowing the answers to a lot of questions that well meaning people have asked me over the years.  I am a bona fide expert in this field.  For instance, I was always in awe of my friends and family who knew definitively what they wanted to do.  To be honest, I often wondered if they were lying.  lol.  I mean how did they know at 18 that they wanted to be a doctor or teacher or whatever? I say, good for all of you people who knew and know what you wanted to do or be.  Even better if you knew the how, and why, and wherefores.  Those of you who knew/know all that don’t need to read further.  As a matter of fact, you should probably share with the rest of us how you did that.  But for those of you who are not always sure like me….read on.

I often will look to the past to try and help me navigate the future.  But in truth, the past is just the past.  It’s not the future.  It’s not even always a good predictor of the future.  Mainly because we are not the “self” from our past.  We’ve changed and hopefully grown into a whole new person. So…strike that technique to find answers off the list.

I know people who will look to other successful people for answers.  That might be a good technique for some… but for me…. not so much.  Because,  I am not that other person.  And if I am doing what someone else says they did, well it might be okay for a minute, but ultimately I’m not going to react the same way they did forever. And it’s not who I am.  It’s not authentic for me.   So I had to strike that idea too.

So what does work?  What is the “answer” (literally and figuratively)? It took me awhile to realize that the answers are not as important as the questions.  That’s right, you heard it here.  Our society seems to be answer driven.  But what about the lessons we learn as we journey to the answer?  What about that huh?   What about the unfolding in time so that we have a chance to internalize the lesson? It seems to me that the “good” answers are the ones that show up in our lives from a lesson we learned.  Not because we skipped the lesson and went right to the answer.  I know it’s what we all want, instant gratification.  Hey, I’m right there with you.  I’m all about instant gratification.  Unfortunately, the glow from instant gratification sure doesn’t last very long.  And then, you’re right back where you started.  Lost.

What it comes down to is this, for me……I don’t know how to find the answers other than to just live the journey.  That means living with the unknown and sometimes unknowable. So, mostly my prayer is to ask the right questions, to have the strength to live with them, and to recognize the answers when they show up in my life.  TA DA!!   Pretty dang wise you say?  I have to agree.

In my Spare time (new listings)

So in my spare time…I create.  Little moments stolen from the demands of life in a big family.  I haven’t made the time lately to make sure that my listings were updated on Etsy.  But I did today.  Woot! And it is very cool sometimes to see all of this artwork together and realize that you can create a body of work in those small moments.  You can.

 

Alien Thoughts bear channel Choose thoughts that bring relief claim your strength you are not that fragile Culturally transmitted madness Driving the Prejudice Vehicle is a dead end job hush hush I Am You I know you by your opposites listen as hard as you can mostly just a dream mother maiden crone Not bone tired but heart tired objects of scrutiny Once there existed a golden time One day at a time Playing the part despite her ancient knowledge Rabbit Requiem of doubt secure in the strength she was born with Some angel that wanted you to choose to breathe Tell The Truth The magic never left you The Unique Ones tired of watching every step waiting on the next step to be revealed what goes on in the pauses What if you're just too damn tired whispering fairy tales to my inner child

Spirit guides…

I’ve been working in my Spirit guide journal this week.  So I see an animal or one comes to mind.  I paint it and then I get to look up the meaning.  I’ve decided lately that there are just no “coincidences”.  Take this bunny, I had no idea that one of the meanings was “moving thru fear”.  It’s so perfect for what I’m worrying about this week.  So perfect.  It’s a very cool way to speak with your subconscious. To filter thru the junk and come up with the treasure.  And of course…I’m always happy and comfortable when I’m painting animals.

 

 

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“moving thru fear”

 

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“pay attention to the elders”

 

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“filtering soul lessons”

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“Personal power”

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“women’s healing wisdom”

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“moon magic”

 

Processing…

Sometimes it’s hard to show up in whatever practice you’ve decided on.  So I find that some evenings when I finally get the time to sit down….I don’t want to journal.  But, I know, for myself, that if I don’t I feel unfinished.  Left undone.  Like forgetting to brush your teeth or wash your face.  That’s what journaling does for me at the end of the evening, it leaves me a little cleaner…with a little more clarity at the end of the day.  And those days I don’t want to show up…those are the days when I most need to.  But sometimes I just don’t or can’t. I don’t beat myself up over it…but I feel it in an uneasy way until I’m back on track.  That small uneasy feeling…that’s when you know you’re going in the wrong direction.  Sometimes it seems too…that the days I don’t want to show up are the days when I dislike the message on the page.  Which is another reason to show up in your practice.  Because it’s all about the whole thing…the ugly and the beautiful, the good and the bad, the light and the dark.  Every artist knows that a piece of art is not really very good without all of those.  Just saying.sisters

Fall and All

"Grounded Bear"

“Grounded Bear”

Already?  It’s Fall already?  Sometimes I feel like my life is a blender and it’s set on whirl 24/7. Everything just whirls by and I can’t catch hold except in moments of quiet art making.  Or…that’s my justification lol, for taking the time out to create.  I don’t need justification, I know that, but apparently my subconscious does not.  So I find myself taking moments to ground, contemplating grounding things.  Like Bear.  He quietly goes to ground in the fall and dreams away the winter.  He will miss the blues and greys and white of winter for the most part.  So I gave him a few color palettes to dream with.

Red Headed Stepchild

Yes I know it’s politically incorrect.  I don’t even know where the saying came from because I, personally, would love to have red hair.  However; when I was growing up, this statement was used for a certain feeling.  A feeling like you weren’t as good as someone else, or you were left out of the good things when they came around. Raise your hand if you’ve had that feeling before?  Hey people raise your hand because I know we’ve all had this feeling. So what to do if you have that feeling?  In my case, you journal.  With pretty colors.

But also, it’s about realizing that we are all creating our own reality.  (I know that sucks right?)  But we are.  So none of us are redheaded step children.  We are all just children in the cosmic classroom sense.  Working and worrying our way on our path to knowing ourselves.  True story.  But not a popular one.