So this year my sister and I are turning 50. Yep the big five oh. Those of you who know me, know that I suffer or am “challenged” by anxiety. I am more challenged by it at certain times than at others. I don’t know why. Family members and friends all have their theories about what causes it to be worse. But I’m of the opinion that it’s caused by hormone and thyroid fluctuations. Which can then cause a spiral into panic if I’m not very, very careful. I don’t know if I’m right…but I can tell you that if you’ve never suffered from panic or anxiety disorder that it can be horrifying and debilitating and humbling. It is also a HUGE energy vacuum. HUGE.
So anyway, this year being my fiftieth, I’m really trying hard to overcome the drain of anxiety and live a little more peacefully. A little more centered and calm. Not that I haven’t tried to do all these things in the past, mind you, but I’m trying again to be in the moment when anxiety strikes. To make sure I’m as healthy as I know how to be…..to make sure that I’m spiritually walking and talking the talk. In the spirit of all that…of course it’s coming up in my art journal. Anxiety. bleh. but I discovered something when I started to art it all out. There is still brightness and light in the middle of it all. I believe that and my art confirms it. HA HA. Take that doldrums, panic, and blues. Take that!